What Are You Second Guessing?
I’m coming up on two years “in the real world” as I call it. Engagements that bring me back to campus making me feel like a stranger on my own turf and sometimes a mom to the college student that I once was. If I think about it too much I get in my feels when I reminisce on late nights, fun memories, irreplaceable laughs, and the non-existent to-do list that I thought made me “sooo busy.”
Even though those truly were some of the most fun 4 years of my life I still believe the best years are yet to come. Just how when you get to college, thinking about high school was fun but you wouldn’t trade it for the life you have now. I think there is something about surrendering each new season to Jesus, they just keep getting better. So even when I miss the memories of college so bad it hurts there is so much beauty in young adulthood, walking in your calling, establishing community, and learning in your career.
As my senior year of college came to an end I pondered a lot of things in my life. The job I chose to take, the town I chose to live in, how would I know if I made the right or wrong decision. Was this really the path God wanted me to take? Is this truly the job he created me to work? The pressure of the “what if’s” started to weigh in on my mind. The curiosity in the “what if” pattern of thinking is what led Eve to ponder if God even spoke the truth. “What if I can eat the fruit and live,” “what if the serpent was right.” Second guessing what God spoke will always lead to anxiety because it is thinking outside of the path he mapped out for you.
When I finished college and started life I remember my biggest struggle wasn’t finding a job or looking for community, it was being confident in what I chose. My first summer in post grad I asked God daily, remind me of what you called me to do, affirm the path you created for me. In a world of right ways, wrong ways, and what if I made the right decision God taught me that when you love him and when you are his child favor follows you wherever you go. This life isn’t a game of being heavens robot, it is a series of choices that God gives you. The choice is up to us, some are bad and some are good. But when we invite God into whatever choice we make, we can be sure his glory will rest in.
Whether you take the job in Dallas or Nashville, God will be with you. If you decide neonatal nursing or cardiac ICU, God will be with you. If you are worried you should’ve taken the job off over going to grad school, God will still be with you. Not only is he with you but he has gone before you, prepared the way, for the community you will find, the favor you will walk in, and the impact you will make.
What have you been second guessing? What can you surrender and trust God’s presence will still be in.
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8
