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What God Has Been Teaching Me

Happy Wednesday, another post day! Whether it’s still wednesday or maybe it’s a couple days later and you’re just on a late night scroll I hope you have had the best day! As I write this I am sitting with my grandmother at her house, today was round #2 of chemo. Yep I said it, chemo, which means she has the big C word, cancer. It’s been a unique season for our family to say the least. My grandmother is my light and joy. The matriarch of the family, grandmother to all she meets, the QUEEN. She prayed with me to receive Jesus into my heart, rescued me from dark nights that childhood brought, and has spoken words of life over me that have developed the person I am today. She has navigated seasons of loss, hurt, and health battles with JOY and FAITH and has taught me to do the same. 

Anyone that walks through a loved one being sick knows that it is a season where you want to do all that you can to heal them. Days of exhausting yourself in prayer, pleading for God to heal, while all the while continue through a busy life that has no grace.  Maybe you’re like me and have already walked through a time like this and here you are for round two. Maybe life has been so good the last few years you forgot that your world can change in an instant. You’ve also forgotten how to navigate life when a series of hard days come. I know I felt that. Hard is uncomfortable but hard is good because in the hard spot is where we can learn what God is doing through the hard season. 

At the beginning of the semester God was teaching me about how to let him fight my battles. I did a post about it here that shares the truth that at the end of the day we don’t fight our battles but God does. I learned that worship is our warfare because as we lift up his name, the things we pray for fall into place. God is such a gentleman and prepares us before we enter new chapters and he knew I was entering into a season with a battle to fight.  So when my grandmother got sick, God had prepared the way. Our hearts were ready to pray, they were ready to worship, and they were ready to believe in him to move. 

I have recently learned the power of meditating on scripture. I think I used to feel like I needed to read a new verse of the bible everyday. I came across one a few months ago that was so good the next morning I wanted to read it again and have since spent time focusing on it. It comes from Ephesians 5:8, 13-14 

“ For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Everything exposed by the light becomes visible—and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. This is why it is said: “Wake up, sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.”

The verse tells us that we were once in darkness but now we ARE light. We are light. It says that everything that is illuminated becomes light. From the moment that Christ shines on us, we become light.  Even our darkest days have the opportunity to be illuminated by Christ and become light. So a day you thought would be the hardest day can actually be a good day, a day you don’t have to be afraid of because God illuminates it with his light. That is a mindset God has revealed to me and is teaching me right now. 

Another verse is Isaiah 60:1-3,5 and it says, 

“Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, but the Lord rises upon you and his glory appears over you. Then you will look and be radiant, your heart will throb and swell with joy.”

Every morning when we rise, the light has come for us once again. Which means every morning we have a new opportunity to let our dark places be illuminated by his light.  When we let God’s light have its way, we will be radiant and others will see God’s light. Our hearts will swell with joy in seasons where it doesn’t make sense to have it. 

So I’m learning that on days that should be dark, days you get news that a loved one has cancer, your parents are divorcing, you didn’t get the grad school you wanted, God can illuminate and make it full of light. Light that affects us physically as we shine for him and spiritually as we live with joy. 

So I mentioned that when my grandmother got sick, God had prepared the way. He had taught me how to fight my battles so my heart was ready to pray, I was ready to worship, and we were ready to believe in him to move. In a season I thought would be the darkest he illuminated with his light! And still is!! Physical miracles are happening, the fluid on my grandmother’s heart miraculously went away, she has responded so well to treatment even the doctor was surprised and God is not done! 

So are there hard days? Yes. Do tears still fall? Yes. The fight isn’t over, there is more treatment to come, but I am learning that no matter the day, no matter the news, God is good and his light has lit the darkness.

xoxo Scarlet